I can't believe tomorrow will be our halfway point in this pregnancy! Twenty weeks has seemingly flown by. I have heard that happens with the second pregnancy, and I suppose we have Coop to thank for most of time's fast passing. He keeps us so busy that it's hard to focus on anything other than now.
Tomorrow is our checkup with our OB/GYN and the routine 20 week ultrasound. I am not as concerned with the ultrasound as I am the result of the AFP (alphfetoprotein) blood test. High levels of AFP in the blood usually indicate neural tube defects, and since that has been our concern all along, I am eager to hear the results, especially considering our fetal echo appointment is on Friday. Since the CVS procedure pretty much eliminated Down Syndrome and all the Trisomy possibilities, the remaining concerns from the high nuchal translucency screenings are Spina Bifida and congential heart defects, thus the reason for the Pediatric Cardiologist appointment on Friday. As for the Spina Bifida, the only true confirmation of that would be an amniocentesis, and at this point, I just don't want to put Cain or myself through another invasive test.
Of course I am inclined to worry. After all, I am OCD, and worry is usually what I do best. However, lately, God has given me a peace about all of this, and I know that whatever will be will be. My worry won't change anything, at least not for the better. And who knows? All of these doctor's appointments and specialist's visits could prove that there is nothing wrong. Right now, we just don't know, and I suppose that is what drives the worry - fear of the unknown. But I know God knows what's in store for Cain's life and the life of our family. Whatever the outcome, I do know one thing. Just like Coop, Cain will be loved more than he will ever know.
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